As my two weeks without my little 9 year olds comes regretfully to a close, I can't help but feel more at peace with my decision to enter this profession. Yes, I get week- long breaks sporadically throughout the year, not to mention my 2 month vacation that will close out my first year of teaching, but more importantly, I am lucky enough to have a job that makes me feel both proud to be working with such incredible people and also humble to know that I am probably unqualified for it. I feel incredibly blessed to have such a supportive staff and some of the most hilarious students a teacher could ask for. They make me crave for Monday when my life will return to simplicity and predictability.
I have enjoyed these two weeks of spontaneity and freedom. I have had some incredible experiences with incredible people, but in all honesty, I crave the chaos and frustration that has characterized my first semester of teaching. Getting back into my classroom again where I can obsessively sharpen pencils, reorganinze all my materials, remind my students again and again not to stuff all their papers hapazardly into their desks, is what I truly desire. I love knowing that God has placed me at this school with these kids for a reason. Granted, I haven't figured out that purpose yet, but I feel honored that He would see me as worthy of knowing these awesome little people. Don't get me wrong, I HATE planning and I am SO over grading homework. But my job can't be great all the time; otherwise, everyone would do it, and I may be out of a job! :)
I am excited for the second hurdle of my first year as a fourth grade teacher. I am praying it is a little easier than my first semester, but am realistic in thinking it will probably be the same. I am nervous for the end of the year when I'll have to say goodbye to these kids I've grown to love. And, I am celebrating that in 5 months I will get 2 months to enjoy being spontaneous and carefree again. This winter break has been a nice reminder of how nice that can be.
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