So…yeah, I don’t love the Proverbs 31 woman. Here’s my beef with her:
I don’t measure up.
Not even close. Not even a little bit. Not even at all (yes,
that should be read like Julia Stiles from 10 Things I Hate About You).
So naturally, instead of trying to better myself and make
goals to be more like her, I did what any stubborn, insecure girl would do- I
resented her.
My sour attitude
stems from numerous superficial readings of this chapter and from overused motivational phrases often heard at Christian women conferences and Bible studies. And because I had not made concerted effort to
understand the history or context of this chapter, I had missed a
key element in understanding her. Instead, I had built the Proverbs 31 woman up to be a cruel
to-do list, an unkind reminder that I am not as good as I think I am, and that I
don’t in fact, have it all together.
Round #1:
Her: “She gets up
while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her
serving girls” (Proverbs 31:15)
Me: I do wake before
Katie, but not by choice. My job demands
it. I have yet to make her breakfast,
and I doubt that it’s in her near future. I think I may have folded her laundry once,
but my motive was entirely selfish. I
needed the dryer. I was not going to be “that
girl” who just dumps someone’s laundry on the floor. I mean, I’m not heartless, just a little
selfish.
Winner: Proverbs 31 woman
Round #2:
Her: "She
considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard." (31:16) In other words, she is a financial powerhouse.
Me: I don’t understand money. Don’t ask me about my retirement plan or the
interest rate on my house or even how much money I have in my bank
account. Your guess is as good as mine.
Winner: Proverbs
31 woman.
Round #3:
Her: “Her arms are strong for her tasks” (31:17)
Me: I can’t do a pull-up to save my life, and I
struggle with downward dog during yoga. I
even cringe to think that I may have contracted what has plagued teachers for
generations- the dreadful “teacher arms.”
You know exactly what I’m talking about, those pesky, flabby things that
jiggle when teachers write on white boards.
Gag.
Winner: Do I even need to say it?
But here’s what dawned on me yesterday: I was
missing the boat. The woman I had fabricated in my mind was not
the Proverbs 31 woman. I had dissected
her so much that I made her into something fake, something plastic, something false.
I had turned her into the unattainable, flawless woman on the cover of a
magazine, rather than into what she was intended to be, a woman full of grace, love, and
humility.
But yesterday, I learned something that rocked my world:
The original Proverbs 31 was offered as a Jewish poem given by a
husband to his a wife to offer her praises in the ordinary. It was a love song, not a critique. It was an attempt to praise women as the
beautiful, incredible creatures that God created them to be, not to belittle
them for their shortcomings.
Well, hey, that’s something I can get on-board with.
So I did. I began examining the amazing women God has put
before me and was amazed to find a slew of Proverbs 31 women in my life.
To me, the Proverbs 31 woman:
- is the woman who walks in the frigid cold on a murky street in Pasadena to accompany her tender hearted niece back to a trailer. She is also the woman who continues to stand outside in the cold as the aforementioned niece pours her heart out, seeking affirmation and wisdom.
- is the woman who signs up for a 5k at the young age of 63 to better her health and her life and to make her daughter incredibly proud.
- is the one who answers the phone when her neurotic friend calls in a helpless mess. She offers grace and insight, sprinkled with a little humor and sarcasm to aid in her friend’s distress.
- is the one who sends the text, “I can’t promise to fix all your problems, but I can promise you won’t have to face them alone,” at a time when her friend has a big life decision to make.
- is the one who tells her mildly unhygienic and self-conscious cousin that she’s beautiful, even though the greasy hair and grungy sweatshirt would suggest otherwise.
So, instead of turning the Proverbs 31 woman into another
mirror to reflect our inadequacies, I chose to see her many facets in the captivating
women that surround me. And maybe, just
maybe, I’ll even begin to see those facets in myself.
Winner: ?